Evangeline is part gypsy

April_Rose · Evangeline is part gypsy

from popmatters

PASADENA, Calif. - Evangeline Lilly, who plays the beauteous Kate on “Lost,” confesses she’s part gypsy. It was that restless spirit that almost made her turn down the chance to costar in the ABC hit television series. It was the same wanderlust that has kept her on the move.

“As soon as I left high school I cut my ties with everyone I knew and took off to a new city and I started again,” says Lilly, seated at a small, round table in the corner of a dark bar in a hotel here.

“I moved (between) towns in British Columbia. I remember saying to myself when I got to this new town, `You can be anyone you want to be now. Nobody knows you. Nobody has an expectation of you. So you CHOOSE who you want to be.’ And choosing who you want to be is a very different thing than feeling like you just are who you are.”

For the next three years Lilly moved to six different places, each time assuming a new persona. “I tried out six different personalities and characters. It was really an amazing time, very lonely but very formative - Kelowna and White Rock and Vancouver - it was usually a five-hour driving radius, but still people didn’t know me. And what came out of that was I got a piece of this person and a piece of that person and a piece of that person and formulated the person I wanted to be from all those different characters I tried on.”

Those experiences taught her not to care what other people think. “That was very empowering,” says Lilly, who’s dressed in a multi-colored sweater cut to the naval, blue denim pants and black patent pumps.

“Of course, as an adolescent you care very much what people think of you. I always felt like not only did I care what people thought of me, I was a very faithful Christian as a teenager. I cared very much what the church thought of me and what God thought of me, what my parents and my peers thought of me and what the entire world thought of me. Because I felt that was my spiritual responsibility and that was something I had to let go of when I realized I’m responsible to myself and to God and that whatever any one else in the world thinks - even if they’re the church - does not matter.”

Lilly, who longs to be a writer, wasn’t sure she wanted to act. She had no designs on becoming a model, either. But she found herself doing commercials to pay her way through college. “It was the most degrading work I’ve ever done,” she shakes her head.

“I’ve been a grease monkey, a flight attendant, a waitress - lots of different odd jobs but that job was so degrading because their version of what an audition is, is you show up in a room looking as pretty as you can look, and a man who spends all day looking at pretty women looks you up and down and sizes you up and makes a decision based on whether you flirt with him or whether you’re pretty enough or whether you go with him for a drink afterward,” she says.

“And I would have none of that. I would always walk in, say my name and walk out. I had no interest in being part of that. I still got jobs, but I could feel what I was involved in. I could feel the energy around me that was just putrid and I eventually - with great offers on the table - said to my agent, `I will not take one of those jobs. I will not do another day of commercial work another day in my life again.’”

For a while she worked as a lowly extra, toting her school books with her while she waited on set to move in the background of a scene. “I used to watch the actors and actresses and think: `I’m am SO glad I am not you,’” she laughs. “`I am so glad. I can just sit back here, do my work and not have anyone pay any attention to me. You poor things.’ Cut to three years later.”

Of course, three years later “Lost” arrived and Lilly, 27, finds herself the center of the media frenzy that has dogged the show. When her house in Hawaii (where the show is filmed) burned down a year ago, she says she was mortified to find the paparazzi, like jackals, eager to scavenge for her personal memorabilia. The crowd was held at bay by the police until she could go through the incinerated remains of her life.

She’s been romantically linked with “Lost” costar Dominic Monaghan, but refuses to say whether they are engaged (she wears no ring). “I try not to talk about my private, personal love life in the press because I’m a firm believer that given an inch they will swim all over it,” she says.

“I always keep really mum about my love life. I’ve seen so many tabloids where they have a beautiful picture of a couple and they tear a line down the middle.”

redwinegoblin

I'm sorry, maybe it's just me but every time I read an interview about Evangeline Lilley I just cringe!!!
Am I being too harsh or does she have her head wedged firmly somewhere that no sun ever shines?!

Em_J

No, makes me cringe an' all!! Laughing

redwinegoblin

The poor girl's had such a hard time....modelling's really really hard graft too - and who'd expect that in an industry like that people would judge you on your looks?!!! Must have come as a terrible shock.... Rolling Eyes

Em_J

Heh heh! Exactly! Time to whip out the violin. . .

redwinegoblin

*plays a song of much tristesse on the world's smallest violin*

angelfairy

^^^lol i may seem harsh but i don't really have any sympathy for her

April_Rose

I really like Kate but Evangeline does come across as a bit....*innocent little me*....the Christian missionary thing got to me a bit as well!

Xarcabard

I like her, she doesn't come accross all stuck up like a lot of the actors ie Matthew Fox, Dominic Monaghan etc. Very harsh critism imo, but I'm used to it by now from emmer and rwg, they do it in just about any thread about Evangeline I've ever seen. Laughing

April_Rose

Seriously though, the christian missionary thing just does my head in, it ruined the idea I had of her. I remember canadians coming over to talk to us in school about abstinence and the power of prayer and crap like that, and to think that she was like that....

Em_J

to Xarca.

Dom Mon isn't stuck up! At all!

Do you know what really gets me about that? This bit: Lilly, who longs to be a writer, wasn’t sure she wanted to act. She had no designs on becoming a model, either. But she found herself doing commercials to pay her way through college. “It was the most degrading work I’ve ever done,” she shakes her head.

Most degrading work she's ever done?! She wants to try being a cleaner.

Xarcabard

Not saying Dom is stuck up, he just appears that way whenever he's doing an interview or is in front of the press. Although Matthew Fox does seem worse.

redwinegoblin

Yeah i think the problem I have is that she always goes on about having to do degrading work, but as Em says, she should try doing some manual work. Modelling's not a difficult job and people judge you on your looks because that's what they're employing you for!!! it's not about the brain!

Its a shame because I like Kate as a character but every time Evangeline does an interview she seems more into herself and how difficult a time she's had. Grrrrr

The only of that interview that I felt sympathy for her was the bit about her house, that's pretty harsh, but other than that...yawn.

April_Rose